Saturday, September 27, 2008

Mean Churches

A reader of my last post brought a post on another blog to my attention. It's entitled "Dear Tormentor" and while I'm not a pastor in the same sense as this lady's husband, I was ministering in my church and I can relate VERY well with this post. Everything from my daughter being hurt badly by someone who thinks of themselves as a Christian to me being ran over and treated like dirt. It's made us not have to move home but definitely have to leave a place that we were beginning to think of as home - our previous church. I still don't get why leadership let's such trash happen but I deeply empathize with this post and so I simply had to share it with you. I could go on to say so much more... about how this church has no right controlling my life, about how I so longed to simply share fellowship and a mutual love of Jesus, about... Yet, alas, all I can say is that my previous church doesn't care who they hurt as they seemingly believe that there are enough people out there who are willing to take it that they can use and abuse whomever they desire. Well, so be it. I for one will no longer allow a church to do this to me - EVER.

AMEN.

P.S. Yes, I'm still really hurting. Hopefully time will heal and I will be able to forgive but I will never forget what the church has done to me all in the name of service.

10 comments:

Mitch said...

I'm not religious, so this might sound weird coming from me, but obviously your spirit comes from within, and people are people. Sometimes good people do bad things for no other reason than they don't know any better. Sometimes good people do bad things because they're cowardly. In either case, as it pertains to your issues, I believe you're doing the right thing for yourself and for your family. As Dr. Phil says, we teach people how to treat us. Good luck with it all.

IMA WAHM said...

You know Mitch, I'd actually forgotten about Dr Phil's saying there - Thanks for reminding me!

pennymaxwell said...

I am so sorry that you are feeling this way! It hurts me to see you hurting even though I do not know you and have never met you! I hate that you are hurting like you are!

On behalf of all Christian leader I apologize for the examples we set and the pain we have caused people!

I wish I could tell you that I was perfect and I had never hurt anyone either but I am afraid it would not be true. What I can tell you is that there are real deal leaders out there would would love to know you!

I pray you dont give up pn God's bride just have time to heal from your pain. Relationships are so not easy sometimes!

I am so sorry you are hurting! If you are ever in Charlotte, NC drop by!

IMA WAHM said...

Penny Maxwell, thanks for your concern. Maybe one of these days I'll meet one of those real leaders.

Tarasview said...

I'm glad that post spoke to you. I thought you could relate. I'm sorry you are hurting.

Roger DJ said...

Hi, I was just doing a few drops when I noticed some of your posts. I don't know what was done that hurt you so, but I would encourage you to step back from it for a time, spend some daily time drawing near to God in prayer and taking a good bath in His word. I am sure that as you do these simple things you will begin to hear His voice through His word. You had a lot of things going on at the same time. Stopping the busyness to draw near to Him will open the door for Him to speak into your life. Remember Mary and Martha ? Concerning the body of Christ/hey, we need each other because that's the way God designed us. Coming together on a regular basis was His idea.Hebrews 10:23-26. Blessings in Christ !

Laura said...

I read your post, and my heart hurt. I wanted to write something profound, comforting, something profoundly comforting, but the previous post did what I intended! I hope that you have voiced your objections of your treatment to the proper authorities in the church, so they can be aware of your pain. I know that sometimes people get so wrapped up in their "mission" that they take advantage of the very people along with them on the journey. But the zeal for the mission is not an excuse for running over your own workers> I pray that you find rest, and peace, in the Lord. His flawed vessels are His business!

You must know, however, as a Calvinist, that this hurt was intended for your good...You can use this to grow, or you can allow yourself to be paralyzed with bitterness toward other Christians. I've been in that place, too. If you can't resolve your differences with that church, perhaps it's time to move on and find another place for worship. That church does not represent all others, and you'll find that your new place was where you've been going toward all along!

a fellow Presbyterian, praying for you...

IMA WAHM said...

Thank you Laura! The issue is that the pastors at that church are part of the problem as well. All nice and loving on the outside but when you really find out what they're really like, look out. I'm moving on. Not so much for my sake right now but for the sake of my daughter.

Laura said...

May the Lord help you find peace, and rest, a place to worship, and a song to sing.

Laura

Sreedhar Jeshurun said...

One Godly man said"The world's best people are christians(who have fellowship with Lord) and the world's worst people are also christians but(out of fellowship with lord).

So obviosly there are 2 churches in the world :

1) The church which maintains fellowship with the Lord.

2)The church out of fellowship with the Lord.